How could you leave me at my lowest, at my darkest? I thought you were my keeper, but you turned your face to my tears and shut your ears to my whimpers of pain.
I told you I needed you. I told you that I didn’t have anyone else. But you chose to stay silent, you chose to stay away.
I didn’t know how to go on and I didn’t want to go on. I wanted me to end and I prayed for me to end. I whispered to you that I dreamed about the end.
You said I was selfish. You told me to think about the family, the fall out. You told me to not be stupid. You walked to where my pain couldn’t reach you. You minimized my pain.
You built your life while watching mine crumble in the distance. You blamed me for the destruction. You told me to be more responsible.
I asked you for a lifeline. I asked you to help me keep my dreams alive. To live with you and continue working at my dream job. To catch my breath and stop the destruction.
But you chose not to help me, not to inconvenience yourself or your “friends”. You slammed the door right in my face.
Now you want to see me, but you call and I can’t answer. You are a stranger to me, not the sister I grew up with. You remained silent and now I am too.
You forgot me. and now I must forget you too.