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Tell me about yourself

My name is Yuliya Chekmareva and I want to give you a real answer to this question. Or I will try my hardest. I have been asked this question a lot in the past few months. No people aren’t interested in knowing all the intricacies of my soul, all the scars on my heart. They want the perfectly tied together, Yuliya, who will add immense value to a company. Not that Yuliya that is desperate to be hired. It’s the interview question that I have perfected after countless interview preparations. The one I can answer in my sleep without a breath of hesitation.

Today, I want to give my best shot at a real answer. Why? Cause my little sister  is a genius who consistently challenges me to be true to myself. Whether that’s in life pursuits or through writing.

Who am I? I’m a woman that has fought a lot of battle and overcome some hard, dark things. And life has broken me down to tears countless times. And I have given up so many times. I have asked God~Why? And received silence. And wondered if He abandoned me.

I am also a person that believe in kindness. Not the polite, let me open the door for you & ask you how your doing {but only wanting the generic, “well”, answer}. The kind of kindness that desires to know the battles your fighting, your fears, your goals and passions, and the simple things that make you smile. I want to know your story and appreciate life’s fragility through our interaction. So then maybe I can give a little bit of my story to you. I crave that bond with all the people I meet. Whether it’s my grocer, barista, cashier, friend, co-worker, or random person I end up talking with.

I am a person who craves adventure, but also the comfort of familiarity. I feel like a walking contradiction most of the time. I crave safety and comfort. The hands of my father wrapped around me when I finally quit my soul-sucking, depressing job. But I don’t have that. I take chances and risks, and I hate planning. I am a person who makes do with what life hands me. And tries to make the best of things. I seek to be a better person and bring light & hope into others lives.

I love kids. Silly faces, dance parties, and playing tag. You can find me at the kids table at Thanksgiving. I want to inspire my younger cousins to pursue their dreams. To step away from the pressures of our Russian, super-strict up brings, and realize their full potential. I want them to know themselves and know God outside of the constraining rules & judgement that we all grew up around. I dream of having a family and loving my kids fully. I want to inspire my future daughters to cross boundaries, and teach my sons to respect women. I try to live in the moment and not be waiting around for certain milestones or goals. I am excited to meet the man of my dreams, the one that will love me as me, and I can love him fully. But I try not to put to much weight on that. Right now, I am happy to pursing the things that make me happy.

The most important thing about me is that I believe in the good. I believe that God created good things, but bad things are part of life. But I willingly try to understand and obey God. I’m far from perfect and I try to share my struggles with people because I never want someone to think that I am better than them. I am not. We are all God’s children. All created to be loved and to be love by the Creator. I will always need to be saved, but I consciously choose to seek God through all of life’s struggles and praise him even when it’s the hardest thing. My faith has been challenged in the past year and life handed me some tough cards, but I have the best people in my life. My older sister, Marina, who supports me and my dreams. She is my hero. And I am so excited to see her building up a great organization. She has had it tougher than anyone I know, but genuinely loves people. Besides my mom, she is the most sacrificial person I know. In her, I see Jesus reaching out and loving people. Through her supportive hugs that break down your guard and the broken pieces of your heart flow out in tears. Hugs unlike any other. She also makes me feel strong. She reminds me that I am capable of doing the things I set my mind too. My younger sister, Angelina.. Linchik.. she’s my partner in crime. She reminds me that it’s ok to have needs, and pretty things, and feelings. She challenges me to be myself and not conform. And Natasha, who lets me be myself. Who has wiped away my tears countless times. And even though she is young age-wise, she carries maturity in her soul. She has seen the bad, and is able to smile and make you feel like everything will be ok. That it is worth it. And then my brother, Eddy. He is hard to connect with, especially as a teenager. But when he comes to cuddle with me for a few minutes, or when we talk after his track practice, and I get a glimpse into his world, it makes me so thankful for him.

So, this is me. I am a person that is trying to navigate through life as best I can. I have a lot to figure out, But I know that there is a lot of good in life. And I will continue to hold on to this through all of the hard, bad, & ugly.

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