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  • places I want to visit

    May 27, 2020 by

    Niagara falls and Toronto with my mom. She’s always dreamed of going and I want to take her once I’m earning money again. Italy with my baby sister, Natalie. This was a place we talked about going once I was better for her high school graduation, and even though it’s been delayed, I still dream about going together and celebrating life. We’ll eat gelato, pizza, pasta, and visit all the beautiful sites. Vietnam. I’ve dreamed about going here since the beginning of college. The rice fields and mountains look so green. And the french food incorporated into their food sounds… Read more

  • things that make me happy

    May 26, 2020 by

    summer afternoons in Portland with the sun glistening in the forest and over the city coffee and coffee shops evening walks with dogs and good company finding new fish while snorkeling surfing with a cute boy that laughs at me when I fall off my surfboard while just sitting there face masks at the end of long days watching survivor with my favorite person, my baby sister cooking new recipes and eating while watching a cooking movie (Julie & Julia is a favorite) bon fires and deep chats while camping first-kisses while stargazing dressing up for special nights or for… Read more

  • Things I love about my baby sister

    May 25, 2020 by

    the way she admired me so much as a child. she proudly showed me off in elementary school & told her teachers I went to UC Berkeley. It melted my heart. I hope I still make her proud. how intensely she loves. she might hide it because she’s been hurt so much, but she has the capacity to love so much, that I know it scares her. she was the cutest and most inquisitive baby. she was so observant to the world around her. she was a magical baby, so special and so sweet and I still remember her first… Read more

  • 30 Day Writing challenge

    May 24, 2020 by

    I’ve been in need of writing inspiration and I came across a writing challenge on my sister’s Pinterest. Below is the specific challenge for the next 30 days. It’s simple and I’m hoping it will help me develop better writing discipline. Here goes nothing! Who am I? I love rainy days, bookstores, grocery shopping, and running. On the enneagram I’m a type 2 wing 3. Type 2 is “The Helper” and type 3 is “The Achiever”. I have a deep need to be needed and a deep want to be successful. My relationships are the most important thing in my… Read more

  • my safe haven

    May 2, 2020 by

    walking through my favorite grocery store, New Seasons in Portland, I’m immediately greeted with the sweet scent of fresh flowers tempting me to pick them up and bring them home. I walk through the baked goods and I’m drawn to the buttery croissants, reminding me of walking through the streets of Paris early in the morning with my sister Marina. I make my way to the produce, eyeing the colorful bell peppers, the fresh kale, and the ripe papayas. I always stop by the chocolate aisle and get wrapped up looking through all of the chocolate bars, checking out the… Read more

  • {new list} a few of my favorites & random thoughts

    April 17, 2020 by

    Throughout my 20’s I encountered a lot of trauma, in some ways I was dealt a bad hand, and in other ways, I inflicted myself with circumstances I should have walked away from. Though I’ve learned and grown so much from those hard days, I’ve also faced a lot of physical illnesses as a result of the chronic stress. Most recently I’ve been dealing with a brain injury as a result of a prescription drug that I wish I never touched. And though I still have so much progress to make until I feel like myself, I need to acknowledge… Read more

  • o c ean waves

    April 7, 2020 by

    sickness feels like that place in the ocean where the waves break into each other, constantly turning water over and over, restlessly. creating sea foam that my sister used to called ocean snow. its this breaking point, where one wave coming in crashes into the wave that is coming out, an imbalance of forces clashing, that it creates a turbulence on even the most calm days. it is the same with my sickness; its a turbulence that I’ve learned to dwell in, where i’ve tried to stand up weakly, but then a big waves comes and knocks me down. i… Read more

  • decomposing matter

    March 27, 2020 by

    I want to write again, but I’m afraid I no longer know how. Words and phrases fill my head, but instead of the ease that they would spill onto the page, into stories and wondrous phrases, they come out FLAT and jumbled together. So I decided to bury them inside of me, instead of facing their hideous appearance. But instead of disappearing, the words started to die within me. I thought they would feed my insides with their substance, but they caused everything else to grow damp and overwhelmed at the decomposing matter. No matter my effort to rid myself… Read more

  • Land of the sick, home of the broken

    March 17, 2020 by

    It’s been in the land of the sick for a long time. At first I was an obedient guest, but I’ve overstayed my welcome. In this land, there are so many rooms and houses I’ve spent time in. For a while, I was pounding death’s door. My mind was in turmoil, my heart faintly beating, and my spirit was ready to be embraced by sweet death, an end to the suffering. I’ve been in the room of denial, pretending that my body and my mind weren’t altered, and masking my pain with a faint smile, which friends couldn’t see past.… Read more

  • Ode to my first car

    March 13, 2020 by

    My Toyota Rav4 I bought you when my world was turning sour and I was crying nightly in my bed, lost and confused you came as an escape from the pain and hot tears and you brought me to a sleepy, wet city that washed away my frown and replaced it with memories of joy, great coffee, and chasing the best running highs in your interior I shed tears from job disappointments and rejection and together we traveled to new heights: the majestic mountains of Oregon and down to the coast You took us to Cape Kwanda where I stood… Read more

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